I'm officially 19 today!

Haha.. Sorry for neglecting my dear blog. Was busy at work as well as having dinner appointments.

03/03 monday - Nothing much happen lor. Same at work, being bullied by the devil. Hate her lah!

tuesday - Life is no better. Sigh..

wednesday - Can't wait for 5.30pm. Went out with Peishan, YokeLin, Michele and Shiyun. The Central, Waraku. Yummy food. Thou, as usual, I can't finish.

thursday - Went to Juju Hokkaido at Paradiz with Robin. I felt that the standard there dropped a little. Well, perhaps I wasn't really in the mood that night.

friday - Went out with the devil and some other colleagues for dinner at Korean BBQ at Pasir Panjang area. SUCKS TO THE CORE. I dunno why. But after that, went out with Peishan and YokeLin to Cineleisure to watch the WATERHORSE!! Great show! Touching.. Okie, I admit, I teared at some moments. Haha. It's something similar to Eragon. Time I reached home was 1.30am. Haha.

saturday - Met up with my aunties for buffet lunch at Hotel Miramar. Food was not bad. Nothing much happen lor, went home and sleep. Woke up and watch the mischievous princess. Jang Nara is real cute.

Sunday - Lunch with my family, aunts and grand-aunt at DragonGate Restaurant. Yummy food. Hehe.

Today - MY BIRTHDAY!! Hahaha! Grand, cause it's also my lunar birthday. I'm soooo glad that Algernon is the 1st one to wish me! 12am on the dot! Very pleasent surprise from him. Love you! Met him up for dinner just now. He treated me to Crystal Jade. Xiaolongbao and la-mian. Hehe.

Anyway, to sum this post up, I've received lotsa presents from all my dear ones..
Algernon - Big Fat Wugui..

Mama - Pierre Cardin wallet..
Godma - 2 Puma Evisu Jeans..
Kor - Watch..
And alot more.. Hehe.. (Psst, above are ranked with order of importance) Hehe.. Not the item, but the person. Lol.

Algy,
Thanks for tonight. Really enjoyed myself. Thanks for making my wish come true, for making my birthday so meaningful. Love you.


-xiaoyun

It's March!

Hmmm.. Updates for the whole week.

Monday - Life seriously sucks at work. There's this devil, ok, my direct servicer, that kept on bullying me lah. I hate her. Well, everyone in the office does. Cause her name smells to the core!

Tuesday - Life is abit better. Went to vivocity with Peishan and Yokeling, ate SUPERDOG. The fries there are nice! Yummy~ Met Him for awhile.

Wednesday - Nothing much happen.Again went out with Peishan and Yokeling to vivocity for makan. Ate at The Asian Kitchen. I hearts xiaolongbaos. Hehe. Then chill out at the riverside there.

Thursday - Hell begins once again. I need to stay back at work. Sigh. Cause there's too much work to do. Was planning to leave at 8pm. But alas! My computer went bersak. It kept hanging up on me lah! Who says latest computer is the best?! Now we're all proven WRONG. HP sucks! So, I overtime till 9pm. Wanted to go already but that devil SUDDENLY give me another work to do and just ask me to stay and finish it up. SHE is CRAZY I SWEAR! In the end got home at around 11pm. Hai. And what made things worse are HIS replies in MSN. I'm beginning to feel NOTHING for him.

Friday - Life is better. I love Fridays because the devil's mood is exceptionally good. Knock off at 5.30pm on the dot. YEAH! Went to meet Michele and Paopao at The Central for dinner at Wakaru. =) Happiness! It was an advance birthday celebration for me. Then met him up to give him his wallet. Yes, it's an expensive Braun Buffel wallet mind you. And shit, after receiving it, he just say thanks and send me off to take a cab. What the fuck isn't it. What A GUY to treat ME like this?! From that moment, I've decided. NO MORE OBLIGATIONS TOWARDS HIM! I MUST live my OWN life!! Hmm. =)And I seriously doubt he will get me anything for my Birthday. I even doubt that he will meet me up. So, SUDAH to such thoughts!

Anywaym back to happy stuffs.. Show you people what Mich and Pao bought for me. Hehe..

This is what Mich gave me.. =)

This is what Paopao gave me.. =)
Love the both of you lots! Thanks for the presents!! Haha..

Muffins~

Haha.. Today early in the morning woke up and proceeded on to my aunt's house.. To bake my muffins! Later going to go out for my church mates gathering le, so here is a quick post on my muffin baking process. Bought the necessities from Phoon Huat. Easy baking. Mix the flour,eggs and water together. Then blend in melted butter. After that I put in sunflower seeds and chocochips. Haha. Scoup the mixture into grease papercups. Place them into the oven. Bake around 35 mins to 45 mins till golden brown. TADAH! Ready to consume! So easy right?! Haha. And it's REALLY yummy!
Baked about 30 of them, left 11 or so to bring home. Picture of the leftover muffins..

I think I should have the habit of taking more pictures. Shall update with more pictures next time lest some people complain that my blog is always so lengthy without any images. BLEAH.


26th Feb Tuesday - PayDay! Shopping with Peishan after work, should be at The Central.
27th Feb Wednesday / 28th Feb Thursday - Either day shopping with Peishan after work, planning to get my wallet at Suntec, if not tired lor. (to be confirmed again)
29th Feb Friday - After work, dinner with MGSP and Paopao, wanted to bring them to Pasta de Wakaru at The Central (not confirmed!).. Then after that, hopefully I'll be able to meet him lor. Haih... =(
1st March Saturday - I forgot who booked me le. Haha.. OK lah, I know it's a korkor of mine, but I dunno which!! To that korkor, please inform me once again. =x
2nd March Sunday - FREE! (people can book me on this date. LOL!)
Fast forward to 5th March Wednesday - Lunch with a number of colleagues at the Jap Restaurant on the 4th floor of PSA Building (Am not sure of the name).
6th March Thursday - Dinner with my owner, Robin! Haha. But he is a busy man. (Cant really be confirmed till the night before I think)
7th March Friday till 10th March Monday - Don't know if he will meet me mah? So this whole stretch reserved for him de. =x
9th March Sunday - Lunch with my family and godma at either DragonGate Restaurant or The Asian Kitchen.
10th March Monday - My birthday!! Planning to take off but haven't apply. Haha.

~断点~
张劲轩

静静地陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸
不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天
就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍
我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸
你已经不在我的身边
虽然你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的
蜜语甜言

Update update! Haha
Hmm. Last night dinner with Dongyuan. At Woodlands de Civic Plaze ate JerkThai. Not bad loh. On the table were my tomyam soup, orange juice, his beef fried rice, lime juice and shared pandan chicken. I particularly love the pandan chicken. Haha. Damn fragrant. Yummy! And not to mention, occasional houseflies. Haha, but but, Dongyuan was there to shoo them away!

After that, went shopping. Bought a wallet, but it's not for myself. Then proceeded home to catch the 9pm show, last episode. Haha. Overall, I spent about S$200 on yesterday itself. Alot hor? But most of the spending(3/4) is on the wallet lah. So you, yah you! Better say you love it! =x

Today planned to bake muffin with my aunty de right? Sad to say, I overslept. Missed my appointment. Opps. Am too tired lah, only got Saturday and Sunday to sleep later loh. So, am forgiven. Hehe.

Busy!!

YES!! Been very busy this few days. This explains the lack of updates. Haha. Anyway, am gonna be busy for the next few days too, or maybe weeks. Hmmm. Gotten my handover stuffs. ALOT to do and learn lor! And hell to her, do things so differently SPECIAL. So my HOLY workbook is now turned to USELESS workbook. Haih. KARMA lah! But I hope I can cope lor. Which to date, still okay lah. Only that she expects ALOT from me. But since Linda and 2 others told me to heck care her, I WILL. Haha! Am so bad. Opps. =x

Anyway, I'll be buying alot of things for my workstation! My "ding ding dong dong" which includes, my Winnie the Pooh mug, tissue box and a small box to store my tidbits. =x Heehee. Alot of things to buy lah, besides the "office" stuffs. Haih, will my money be enough? Hope so. Cause I still intended to treat my family to a good meal on my birthday de. And also my good friends. So yep. And I wanna get a Braun Buffel wallet for myself! Love that design alot. Teehee.

So, let's now look at my appointments booked for the next few days....
22nd Feb Friday - Dinner with DongYuan at place to be confirmed again.
23rd Feb Saturday - Muffin Baking with aunty.
24th Feb Sunday - Churchmates gathering at Bugis.
Fast forward to 26th Feb Tuesday - PayDay! Shopping with Peishan after work, should be at The Central.
27th Feb Wednesday / 28th Feb Thursday - Either day shopping with Peishan after work, planning to get my wallet at Suntec, if not tired lor. (to be confirmed again)
29th Feb Friday - After work, dinner with MGSP and Paopao, wanted to bring them to Pasta de Wakaru at The Central (not confirmed!).. Then after that, hopefully I'll be able to meet him lor. Haih... =(
1st March Saturday - I forgot who booked me le. Haha.. OK lah, I know it's a korkor of mine, but I dunno which!! To that korkor, please inform me once again. =x
2nd March Sunday - FREE! (people can book me on this date. LOL!)
Fast forward to 5th March Wednesday - Lunch with a number of colleagues at the Jap Restaurant on the 4th floor of PSA Building (Am not sure of the name).
Fast forward to 7th March Friday till 10th March Monday - Don't know if he will meet me mah? So this whole stretch reserved for him de. =x
9th March Sunday - Lunch with my family and godma at either DragonGate Restaurant or The Asian Kitchen.]
10th March Monday - My birthday, took off. Haha.

Peishan and I are in love with The Central! Haha. Nice place to hang out! =)
Just looking at the above, just how much am I gonna spend within those days?! March is a spend money month. Am i right?! Haha.

And ya, got 2 more friends in the office! Yoke Lin and Fiona. And one guy, Ken Lai. Weird guy lah! Whenever I go toilet right, he will sure wanna tag along de lor. Maybe is because he still do not have access card, BUT, his nature calling SAME TIMING as mine de meh?! STUPID! HMMFPT! >.< and because of this right, YL kept laughing at me. Sadded! Please please. I'm ATTACHED de hor! Don't anyhow.. I only love Algernon alright?! Thou, no longer together. BUT still, my heart belongs to him alone. Bleah..

To boy,
I'll never abandon you de. Will still wait for you. I know it's tough, but it's definitely not impossible. I will give my best and my all de! You must jiayou too wor!

-xiaoyun

My new year..

Basically, it's boring! Haha. Lacked of the enormous ang pao due to the fact that my great grandpa passed away not long ago. So.. Hai.. Don't have that thick thick ang pao.
But! The intake amount still acceptable lah. Not alot but, better than none.
Got a shocking news to announce!! I DID NOT know that my aunty from my paternal side is also working in PSA Building!! What the hell lor! She's on the 9th floor. Now I've got another red packet/present for my birthday! Haha! I'm greedy. =x

Monday ate "kai gong fan" at Dragon Gate Restaurant. Very very delicious! Abalone yusheng, roasted suckling pig, lobster salad, sharkfin soup(not the shredded kind), steamed fish(hongkong style), broccoli with fresh scallop, abalone with po-chai, fried udon and for dessert, we had tangyuan. Haha. Drooling already? Then played some games, "zhong ji mi ma" and "mao chua lao shu". Highlight of the day is the "snatch red packet" game la. Haha. Money money aplenty.

Tuesday was quite slack in the office, very sick lah. After lunch was handing over of accounts, chatted while discussing the accounts in the conference room. Haha. Fun conversation. Went to the Central located at Clark Quay with Peishan after work and after collecting the Crumpler bag. Had dinner at Pasta de Wakaru. The iced cocoa there is FABULOUS! Haha. Then went out to "romantic" for awhile along the waterbays till about 9.40pm before she proceeded home and I went over to Bishan. Waited for him to reach home and passed him the bag and red packet from my mommy.

Today got MC, resting at home, rotting and typing this entry. Haha. Anyway, went to see the doctor just now in the morning. Comical guy, I wanted the MC only for today, but he gave me today and tomorrow, stating that I won't recover this fast and urge me to use tomorrow's MC to go out shopping with my Valentine since it's Valentine's day. Haha. Sorry, I've got no date with the one I love. So, maybe with Peishan lah.
Till then.

To ahboi,
Hope you like the bag, just a small token. Was very worried that you will get angry at my impromptu appearance. Called you up at the very last minute and I sensed that you're not that happy about it. But I suppose when we met, you're ok with it already. Haha. Very happy that you gave me a hug and kissed me. Just these feelings am I satisfied and contented with. Take care alright, shall see you soon or maybe not, after my payday yah. Lots of love.

-xiaoyun

依恋坐在我旁边
厚厚的想念随月光蔓延
依恋跟在你身边
看你的笑脸吻你的唇边
如果爱是坐秋千
你就是我的原点
依恋是一叠昨天
你给的抱歉多想没听见
依恋是一条天线
只收到从前回忆的画面
没有你会怎么演
那些你说的永远
依恋就让它依恋
已经拥有过你一段时间
或许分开是一种所谓的成全
爱我会放在心里面
有些事不会有期限
依恋是一条天线
只收到从前回忆的画面
没有你会怎么演
那些你说的永远
依恋就让它依恋
已经拥有过你一段时间
或许分开是一种所谓的成全
爱我会放在心里面
有些事不会有期限
依恋坐在我旁边
厚厚的想念随月光蔓延
依恋跟在你身边
看你的笑脸吻你的唇边
如果爱是坐秋千
你就是我的原点
没有你会怎么演

New Year Eve!!

Oh yeah! Hereby wishing everyone of you a very happy lunar new year! Good fortune and health be with us all the way! Huat ah! Hahaha.

Today was a very very slack day in the office. My temporary servicer on leave, so I practically got nothing to do except helping some other colleagues with some filing. Counting down to 1pm then went for lunch with Peishan. Haha. Anyway, changed a new desktop. It's now the 17" flat screen HP, full set. Finally! The keyboard and mouse is new and.. BLACK in colour! Hehe. Love it alot. Got more motivation to do more work. Psst.

I wonder will he message me tonight or tomorrow or totally not. Well, hope he does. Hmmm, shall wait and see. Valentine's day is approaching. Sigh, got quite a few date requests, but somehow, I've got no mood. Maybe, in my heart, there will only be one valentine, which is him. My 19th lonely Valentine's Day. Haha. Well, no other better choice do I? Wait for next year, the year after next, forever... I'll wait for him, no matter what. Call me silly but I think, this is knowing what I want and having the patience to achieve my goal.

Goodnight!

edited- He messaged me! Feeling so happy. Haha. Love this song. 为你存在.

为你存在-飞轮海


东:我曾经不明白每天为何醒来
工作吃饭发呆这样算愉不愉快

尊:我现在不意外生命必先空白
不然哪够让你来排山倒海

纶:感谢你人海中来相遇
当你换我姓名
我才听见我和世界有了联系
爱你让我找到定义
和你拥有属于
就不再怕时间在逝去

全:为你存在才不孤单
苦药都有你分担分享
幸福奢侈到不应该
为你存在才有未来
每件事都值得去期待
每一天都有你和我相爱

纶:没有你喔哦 yeah~

亦:没有你这世界多空虚
记亿个陌生人
少掉一个陌生的我也没关系

东亦:爱你让我发现自己
原来如此聚集
会哭会笑会心跳呼吸

纶:会心跳呼吸~

全:为你存在才不孤单
苦药都有你分担分享
幸福奢侈到不应该
为你存在才有未来
每件事都值得去期待
每一天都有你和我相爱

Spring Cleaning

Yes, I'm doing spring cleaning. Surprised?! Haha. Don't be, it's all with the dear help of my mother. Haha. I'm only cleaning up my personal drawers and tabletop. The rest of the places are done by my mother. Opps. Am just like a supervisor looking over telling her what I still want and what I don't.

Browse through my Diploma books, so many doodles of his name and mine. Drawings of happy couple. Now, it must forever be dust. Just a part of our memory. Sigh. Saw those stuff toys he bought for me, 1 baby sylvester, 2 identical small piglets, 1 enormous piglet which he also has it, cookie monster (the first ever present I got from him). Yah, that's about all the things but meant alot to me. Flipped through those past movie tickets, the ones we watched together. All these things brought back so much memories to me. If only I can spring clean my mind and heart. Sighs. It's going to be New Year soon, but why, why am I in such a moodless state?

To Algy,
I miss you. "I want to share all my love with you, no one else will do." "Even though I try, I can't let go. I can never say goodbye." Yup, that's it. I love you even though you don't as yet. I will continue to wait for you, caring for you.

-xiaoyun

Songs on my mind

Can't Let Go - Mariah Carey
There you are
Holding her hand
I am lost
Trying to understand
Didn't I
Cherish you right
Don't you know
You were my life

[Chorus:]
Even though I try
I can't let go
Something in your eyes
Captured my soul
And every night
I see you in my dreams
You're all I know
I can't let go

Just cast aside
You don't even know I'm alive
You just walk on by
Don't care to see me cry
And here I am
Still holding on
I can't accept
My world is gone

[Chorus]

Do you even realize
The sorrow I have inside
Everyday of my life
Do you know the way it feels
When all you have just dies
I try and try
To deny that I need you
But still you remain on my mind

[Chorus]

No I just can't get you out of my mind
I never can say goodbye
'Cause every night
I see you in my dreams
You're all I know
I can't let you go
Even though I try
I can't let go of something that I need so badly
You're all I know
I can't let go


Without You - Mariah Carey
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give any more
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore


Endless Love - Kenny Rogers
My Love
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
My first love
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make.

And I
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes
They tell me how mush you care
Oh yes, you will always be
My endless love.

Two hearts
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms.

Oh, love
I'll be the fool
For you I'm sure
And you know I don't mind
Cause you
You mean the world to me
I know I found in you
My endless love.

And love
I'll be the fool
For you I'm sure
And you know I don't mind
And yes
You'll be the only one
Cause no one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love...


爱情傀儡—巫启贤

别让我在每个夜里为你流泪
其实我并没有睡
想你容易让心碎
如果你想要的只是荣华富贵
何必在感情世界
留下你虚假的美
我真的好累你要的我都学不会
为你伤悲为你憔悴
你让我喝却不让我醉
我真的好累却为你付出了一切
为你狂野为你沉醉
做一个爱情的傀儡

别让我在每个夜里被你侵略
是我对你不了解
还是我不懂拒绝
如果你想要的只是风花雪月
何必在乎我是谁
又何必如此虚伪
我真的好累你要的我都学不会
为你伤悲为你憔悴
你让我喝却不让我醉
我真的好累却为你付出了一切
为你狂野为你沉醉
做一个爱情的傀儡
我真的好累你要的我都学不会
为你伤悲为你憔悴
你让我喝却不让我醉
我真的好累却为你付出了一切
为你狂野为你沉醉
做一个爱情的傀儡


Out of Reach - Gabrielle
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me

I'm so loving it.

Haha. I'm so loving my company. Guess what, we've gotten New Moon Birdnest for Chinese New Year lah! And this is only the start. On the 11th Feb right, we will each bring in a pair of oranges to Boss room and queue up for red packet. Haha. So cute. So good.

Anyway, after I thought what supposed to be a good day, it was totally ruined at night. Close friends of mine should know what happened. Sigh. If it's meant to be, it will be back to me? Everyone can say that, but to actually being able to do what you preach is NOT easy at all.

To "once my dear, always my dear",
I'll never forget you. I'll wait for you as long as I'm alive even though you asked me not to. You can stop loving me, but you cannot stop me from loving you. Because I see no wrong in loving you. I'm happy that you said you'll be back for me one day, though they said it's impossible. I'm glad to know, you had really loved me once before. I wish you all the best.

-xiaoyun

I'd rather..

Complicated. Very complicated. Today has been a complex day for me at work. So many things to do, one whole heap of filing needed to be done as well as policies. Holy! And on top of that, I'm feeling quite moody. Sigh.

To my Sayang,
Somehow, I'm afraid. Very afraid to be exact, to know of your decision on this coming Friday. But I know that we got to face it no matter how. If there's a choice, I really hope for a patch instead. However, if your decision is a negative one, I'd rather we remain things the way they are right now, with us still being able to contact each other, with me still able to meet up with you, loving you and caring for you. Sayang, please give me as well as the both of us another chance. I love you, alot. I really do.

-xiaoyun

Sighs.. I don't know what am I doing. Destructed. Very confused. Lost in a maze. Just can't seem to get the feelings and priorities right. Drifted too far apart. Why must it be a rainy and stormy day each time after a sunny one?

Just want to cry it out loud. I just wanted him to care more. I don't know what am I now. Hopelessly in love or clinging onto something that wasn't meant to be mine from the start?

To you,
Can you tell me what am I to you now? What's going on between us? I really don't want to feel this depressed but I can't control my emotions. It hurts alot to know that you're online and not wanting to reply a simple message to me. Darling, is that just a salutation or is it from the bottom of your heart? Bring me out of this maze please. Show me the light to your heart. Sigh, please, save me.

-xiaoyun

happiness

Hehe. I'm so so so happy tonight!! Met up with my dearest him. Haha. Thou only for a short while, but hey, it's QUALITY time spent! Was quite surprised that he got me something. Very cute, love it to bits. Am gonna bring it with me everyday! Yes, every single day. My baobei. Haha.

I love his hugs. =p Okok, I know am sounding like a mad little girl in love. But, I really felt love once again from him! And we held hands! Yay! What a victorious night. Went for a short spin in his car. Love the way he looks at me. Haha. So innocently cute with a little smile on his face. =)

Algy,
Thanks for everything tonight. I love you more than words can say. Very touched when you offered to send me home but I can't bear to see you tire yourself out. Miss you lots!

-xiaoyun

PAYDAY!!

YES! It's payday! Haha. Damn shoik can?! You guys should see the surprised and satisfied look on my face that day when I first gotten my prorated pay! It's almost $200 more than what I'd expected it to be lah! Meaning, it's shopping time!! No, not really yet. There are some things I need to do, thou it's not a promise nor is it an obligation, but i just want that person to feel happiness. Haha.

Anyway, went out to eat with my mummy last night. Soup restaurant, amounting to a blardy $50.40 lah, the things there are so-so only lor. Bought bird's nest to reward myself. Cause I'm feeling very lethargic from the work. Hai.. But gotta persevere lah, no work means no income, no income means I cant buy nice things for my that person. Haha.

To my that person,
Am really really happy that fateful evening when u called me, but so sorry that I hung up your call as I really did not know it was you calling me, and I was in that crowded MRT. :( Sorry!! Another happy moment was when you addressed me as "darling". It's been ages you addressed me that ever since we broke up. I miss the way you call me as your darling, your silly girl. I miss everything about us. I hope by your addressing me as "darling" meant something in your heart and not just a salutation. But, does it really meant something? Is there hope? I wish there is, even thou it's just a glimmer of it... I don't care if my best friends say I'm being stupid or what, for I only know, in my heart, there's only one place, and that place is for your staying. It's fully occupied with you and only you, there's no one that will be or shall be able to replace you in my heart. Darling, I love you.
-xiaoyun

It's Friday tomorrow!!

Ahh!! I've worked for 4 days already!! Can't really believe it. Time seems to pass very fast during worktime. Somehow, I can't really finish the work assigned to me on the day itself, thou they kept saying I don't have to complete it on the day itself. But to me, I wanna complete la! Quickly get it over and done with. Haha. It's Friday tomorrow!! Ahh. I'm just practically counting down to pay day. Opps. I've got quite a number of things to buy, personal use and for office, which my colleagues classified them as "ding ding dong dong". Haha. Funny colleagues I've. Without their jokes and guidance, I doubt I can survive those 4 days. Hehe.

Anyway, the food there helped me alot with my dieting plan. All also not nice de!! Either too spicy (Malay stalls) or too blend (Chinese foodcourt) and the drinks are SUPER SWEET! Argh!! Not a proper meal taken since the start of my working days, it's no wonder I lost 3 kgs in just 4 days. LOL!

Saw one of my contact's nickname in MSN. He's been told by someone a sentence which he found it very true. I agree to him. "Behind every successful man, there's ONLY ONE woman. Behind every unsuccessful man, there's two or more.." This also implies to woman too. Haha.

To my Gentleman,
I miss you more and more as days goes by. Each night, I think of you before I could get to sleep. In my dreams, I see you. Do I in yours too?
Love you lots.

-xiaoyun

Working life

Seriously, working life is quite tough (office job), there's so much things to follow, everything is so standardized, there's not even a need to practice flexibility. 9am on the dot have to be in office, 12.30pm on the dot all vacate for lunch and latest by 5.45pm all run away from office. HAHA. Practically, everything is very very systematic, to a point that I got afraid of it.

Today is the second day of work. Yesterday was just orientation. Am still not that sure of my colleagues name. Hehe. Today, orientation in the morning, then got something to do as trial. Felt quite shitty because I'm supposed to knock off at 5.30pm and the blardy work came to me at only 5.20pm!! Ya, it's totally like.. "What the hell lah?!" But I cannot complain much. Haha. So OverTimed till 6.30pm, instead of taking the long journey with bus service 963 (2 hours duration!), I took the MRT home (1.5 hours duration. shortened by 0.5 hours!). Anyway, overall, kinda like the workplace (with reference to the close colleagues, especially PeiShan!).

Hai, seriously I miss him alot. Life has been so boring without him. Am also unsure of the current status of us. Sigh. Not together but still got contact, and contacting each other in a way we used to contact when we're together. I really wish for a patch. But somehow I think it's impossible. He doesn't love me anymore, doesn't care about me anymore, I suppose. Maybe it's really all my fault. To spoil him, is entirely my fault. It's also definitely my fault that I'm not chio and not having the figure he wants. Double sighs!! Why can't I be like those girls that he like (in terms of figure and looks) ???!!

I'm so pissed at myself. My new year resolution is to slim down, beautify myself totally, hoping that he will come back to me one day.
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Algy,
I really love you lots. Can't do without you in my life. I know having me in your life or not doesn't really matter to you anymore now. I just hope, that one day, my presence will be felt and cherished by you.

Love,
xiaoyun.